Love is so weird sometimes. Hubby and I met each other 7 years ago and we’ve been married for the past 5 and a half years. This is 1/6 of my life. To be with my husband and have a family I sacrificed the life I built before I met him. Don’t get me wrong I don’t regret it one bit but I do miss my country, my parents and my friends and my sister of course. Even though I DO have my own family right now…when hubby and I argue or i just have a bad day at work I wish I could just “go around the corner” and see my mum for a chat. Last Friday hubby and I had a big “disagreement” and I thought that we will actually end our relationship. Thankfully we managed to talk and work it out. You see with me suffering of depression and with us not having any help from family it’s been really hard. In my need of punishing myself I punished him as well. I pushed him out of…my heart a little bit and I forgot why i fell in love with him in the first place…. That on top of the parenting struggles and the daily routine it put a lot of pressure on our relationship… I forgot that we needed the “us” time and not only the “family” time. At the end of the day – a working day or weekend we just stop taking with each other and just…watch TV and blog about stuff… Instead of talking with each other about what was bothering us we start talking and confessing to others. I love the fact that I discovered blogging and that through it I met some really nice and lovely bloggers who supported me through my struggles – but in a way it stopped me from confessing my struggles to my hubby. Last time my hubby and I went out for dinner-just the two of us I mean….ah….to tell you the truth I don’t even remember when was that….so we forgot how to…..be together… Ok ok I will be honest here…I stopped showing my hubby that I love and respect him….I am the one that closed and just wanted to stop feeling all together…and of course this was followed by me stopping to want to “be naughty” with my hubby… My husband…bless him…he kept trying but how much and how long can a person try until they give up?!? So after our disagreement last weekend – we actually talked and I finally listened what he had to say as well and how he felt and feels about what has happened in our life in the last couple of years. So…then…I realised how much he still loves me and I told him how much I love him…we hugged and since then we can’t stop “hugging” and is like we met each other once more. I feel like I am falling in love with him once more…on a different level but it feels so nice…I am allowing myself to feel like this again…I feel so warm and loved up inside… I hope that our relationship will stay as it is right now..and I hope that we will continue to talk with each other like we do now…and I hope that we will try to make the most we can of our 2-3 hours we have in the evening after we put our daughter to sleep and just hug each other at least…and continue to show how much we love each other. Our love is a lot stronger than I ever thought. Our love has grown so much and I love my husband a little bit more every day. And I always will… Love you forever… Like this Article? Subscribe to Our Feed!