I just left the hospital and I’m now on the tube. Going to work and my feelings are so very mixed.
Yesterday was a low day for me. This morning wasn’t a lot better but it improved a little bit.
At 9.30 this morning I had an appointment with my midwife on mental issues. With a previous history of postnatal depression and with me still having days when I feel low…having this appointment was the best thing that could happen to me!
The midwife was great! Not even 2 minutes in the appointment I start sniffling and crying…talking about my depression always brings me to tears. I’ve been of my pills for over a year now so it’s understandable to burst in tears every now and then…especially when this pregnancy is not one of the easiest.
She was really kind and told me that if I need to cry more… We talked for about 45 minutes and she refer me to the Perinatal Service .
As I understood they are a team of psychiatrist that look after mums that develop depression around pregnancy and birth period. I should see them in the next couple of weeks.
They will look after me until after the birth. I will also see my midwife – Laureen – again in October. I know it seems like a long time away but she also gave me her mobile number just in case I need to chat or if I feel low. I have no idea if this is normal in cases like mine but I’m really impressed.
Everything else was fine. My urine test, blood pressure and baby heart.
I feel happier because of my appointment today. It’s so nice to see that there are people out there that are so good in their job.
Talking to my midwife felt like talking to one of my friends. It was like talking to one of my mummy friends.
My midwife said that it was great that I admitted my depression in my first midwife appointment because like this her and the team can look after me and make sure my depression will not get as bad as last time.
I’m happy and feel more secure too as I’m afraid that it will get bad again.
If you have a history of depression no matter what kind talk to your midwife as there’s great help out there!