When depression kicks you
I am suppose to be happy…I am suppose to enjoy every single day of my life but i can’t…
I stopped writing about how i felt here and it wasn’t the best choice…
I know i should always write about how i feel but somehow i thought it will help me not to this time…
Of course i was wrong…
Now my mood is so low i can’t seem to be able to pick myself up…
And nobody is here to do it for me unfortunately…
I think the people that love me are bored of my mood swings…
I can’t blame them…
If i was them i would hate myself too…
Oh wait…i already hate myself…
I stopped taking pills about a week ago or so. I did because they are finished and thought i will be OK.
Of course i was wrong…
The last couple of months been really hard…
An emotional roller coaster…
The only thing that keeps me up is the love i have for my girls and the wish that they will be ok…
That is all…
Depression sucks…
But when you are in it by yourself without no support then it is even harder…
I am sliding and there is nobody here to catch me…
10 Comments
Laura (@Chez Mummy)
I know it can be so hard but try to remember you are loved. By your girls, your husband, your family and your friends (including your blogging ones). Don’t be afraid to ask for help from your doctor if you need it
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It is hard to think i am loved…sometimes i hate myself for the way i am…
Mammasaurus
Otilia we all love you, stopping of the pills may be making you feel so bad. If you can get to the GP, please do x
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Thank you Annie. You are so so kind. I will definitely try…x
Jenny Paulin
oh Otilia i am so sorry you feel this way . you are loved very much – you just find it hard to see that through the fog that is your depression. i think you need to see someone like a GP and just talk all this through. sending you huge hugs lovely and you have a beautiful header showing your beautiful children and husband x x
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Thank you Jenny. Really appreciate your words xxxx
tinkertink2010
Sending you a big hug hun – I know what depression is like. The tablets are there to balance the chemicals in your brain. I dont think I would be here if I had not took them. I hope thing get better soon hun xoxo
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I just thought the will not be forever…but it turns out I might need them longer than I though 🙁
Emma
oh Otilla, I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Sending you a huge hug, I wish it could me more. xxx
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Thank you hon. You are very lovely x