There is a bit over a year since I moved with the girls back home. It’s been a difficult one and I must say that the biggest part of my 2014 is already gone and I don’t feel like I achieved a lot. Not anything new anyway…
My life is still the same. Split between my girls, my daily duties and the blog. Trying to change and achieve better things but besides the girls that keep on growing nothing seems to change. Husband only visited three this year and there will be another two month until we will see him again. Life is hard and although we are apart we don’t seem to be able to save any money either.
Every time I think and wonder how things will be in the future I get a feeling of emptiness in my stomach and soul. The insecurity of not knowing exactly where we will be, how long this part of our life will be and fear of growing apart from each other doesn’t allow me to sleep sometimes.
Just before I met my husband I had someone make me an astrology reading and she told me then that I will marry someone and go away from my home country. I couldn’t believe it then but as it happens this week I found in my moms house the papers she then gave me and I realised it all came true. i wish I was reading a bit more careful than or just take them with me in UK. Her readings went as far as to tell me that after I will go in my 30’s some years of quietness will come and even though I will not grow professionally I will grow spiritually! Interesting don’t you think?
My last couple of years were spent mostly at home with my girls and although I kind of stagnated professionally because of my girls I feel like I developed as a human being. Look how wonderful and beautiful they are:
My beautiful girls are my true achievement in life. The ones I turn to whenever I am down and sad, the ones that will put a smile or laugh on my face no matter how upset I am that day.
Thinking of my last experience with astrology I would very much like to turn again to the services of a professional. At least to know how my next 5 years will be so I ca calm down and start resting through the night.
So this is how I started to search the web and stumble upon The Circle. Of course there are lots of others but what I especially like about them is the fact that they have so many ways to communicate(phone, pay by phone, chat ,video chat) and the instantly started a chat with me to find out what I am looking after. I chatted to someone called Allison and she gave me the details I need it.
I am in two mind about reading my astrograma – I really want to know the details of my future but I am scared. If I knew exactly what was waiting for me before I moved home more than a year ago….would i have made the same decision?
I don’t know…The first 6 months were the worse and things are starting to be easy but it’s never easy really. I try to be a mother and a father most of the time and sometimes I lose my patience more than I want to…I just hope and pray doesn’t make me a bad mother.
What do you say? Should I wait for life to show me the path or should I cheat and look into my reading?
Sometimes I think that the only thing I need to do is to look into my daughters eyes to see the future!
Disclosure: This post was written in collaboration with The Circle