Every now and then you get that feeling in your heart…not even sure how to explain it. A feeling that a lot more could’ve been said…a lot more could’ve been done but it just didn’t happen!
I am talking about those moments when the emotions are so high you just don’t know how to explain them.
I am talking about that look in your children eyes, the sadness that you wish they didn’t have…The sadness you wish you could do something about. The moment when you wish you were smart enough to just stop it all!
To stop the sadness, to stop these negative emotions, to stop their nightmares and their cries…you just wish for a better world…one in which you didn’t have to make sacrifices.
We never want our kids to be sad…
We want them to be happy, smiling and excited about life…
I am well aware that any child should grow up in the presence of their both parents – mother and father. But sometimes that is not possible and as much as we wanted done it can’t be done.
For now we fight to spend more time together when we meet. On holidays when we are all together we try and enjoy every single minute. On holidays daddy is always with us, he never goes away.
I dedicate every single day to the upbringing of my girls, I am the one that wakes up in the morning with them and the one that puts them to bed every single night. I am trying to do my best and take the best decisions when they need me to take them for them but most of the time I try to let them spend their day like they want to (in limits of course).
That is all…So in some way my kids have more than others. And we thank for the things we HAVE we smile for the things we ARE blessed with and I teach my girls to do the same every single day.
I know that many of you see me moaning here and on social media…you must be tired by my moaning now…there is nothing I can help you with because it is my right to moan. So look in a different way or unfriend me…the last thing a person in my situation needs to be told is…”well..you shouldn’t complain as it was your choice…”