• Blog,  Family Stories

    In hospital…

    Last Saturday started with us rushing to the hospital as you had stream of blood in your poo poo. My heart was pounding but despite your strange nappy you were still happy, smiling and a chatter box. The wait at the hospital was short but felt so long….for me…and for you because you just wanted to go and walk around and explore… As soon as the doctor came in you started to cry. And I started too. You hate people dressed in white I know. She said you are dehydrated and then wanted to see the dirty nappy I had in a bag…Her reaction…Why couldn’t she control it? She looked…

  • Family Stories,  My thoughts and sorrows

    Saying goodbye is the hardest thing….

    It’s almost a week since you left again. As soon as I get used to you being here and with me you have to go. Although I know this is something that we need to do…I still feel inconsolably sad when you go. The moments when I miss you the most is when the girls need me both at the same time and when they go to sleep. Then I find myself alone, in the living room…usually keeping my dear laptop in my arms. Some days we talk some days we don’t. Although is not that late yet and our eldest is still not in bed thinking of how alone…

  • Blog,  Family Stories

    Kara is 5

    Two days ago it was Kara’s birthday. She is now 5. A child already and I can’t believe the time has gone so fast! I look at her and I still see her as a little baby. I remember her birth and how I feel like it was yesterday. I am so proud of her. She is already a very kind and sweet little girl. She loves sharing with her sister and her friends and she already has quite a lot of friends although we’ve been in my home country less than a year. For her 5th birthday we gave her two birthday parties – one at nursery with all…

  • Blog,  My thoughts and sorrows

    Still here

    I know I’ve been AWOL for most of last week and I apologize. Both girls were(are) pretty Ill so had quite a few nights with very little sleep. Fever ,coughing, crying and worry were the things that kept me awake through the night. Plus right now I am a bit ill too – the normal cold that happens every spring. Hate being ill. The weather is really bad too..raining and cold so we spent most of our days indoors. It’s been crazy but things are starting to look a lot better and hopefully we will be able go out this weekend too. Tomorrow is the Romanian Mothers Day so I’m…

  • My thoughts and sorrows

    Emotions…

    Yesterday the Romanians everywhere celebrated “Dragobetele” and love all at the same time.Dragobetele is the romanian Valentine’s Day basically although this days is not celebrated as much as the latest one. The tradition says that you should show love and kiss and hug on this day and that you should not cry on this day because tears will bring only bad things on the becoming months. I cried a lot yesterday though. I felt sad and I still feel very sad. I am not sure if this time is just the fact that I am emotional because I am before that time of the month or because of my ongoing…

  • Family Stories,  Uncategorized

    Conflicted

    Life… It certainly isn’t easy. As soon as you feel like you know what you doing and you are comfortable with your decisions something happens and all is taking a new perspective. I am the kind of person who like stability and change disturbs me out of my way. It makes me feel restless and conflicted. It makes me wonder constantly if the things I am doing are the right ones for me, my family and our future.I was born and lived until I finished high school in only one city. This is why I thought that after I will get married my life will be in only one city…