• Always Diet

    Today I hopped on the scales again. There was no surprise that the scales are now showing even more than when I came back from the hospital with my new baby.It’s depressing!And I felt like crying instantly…. My daughter is right. Mummy can’t eat cakes anymore. Mummy needs to go on a DIET! God how I hate this word! But there is no other way for me….it’s either DIET or FATNESS! I am cursed with genes that will not allow me to live a life without watching what I am eating. It’s true. The only one that is a normal weight in my family is my sister. I want my…

  • “Fat” and “Big”

    While dressing her up the other day my daughter said: “Mummy you are kind of big!” First I have to say that she was standing on the bed and I was standing on the floor in front of her. After she said It she just make this sign with her hands showing what she meant…she showed wide… Ignoring that I still asked her: “What do you mean sweetheart?” But then she just looked into my eyes and said: “Well mummy you are tall!” To which I answered: “Are you sure that this is what you mean?” And while putting her hands around my neck she said: “Yes mummy!” But I…

  • About her…

    She doesn’t have a chance…it makes me sad… I see how she’s looking at the girl with a short skirt…she would love to be like her… They are probably both in their teens. They look like they are anyway. I see her like me…a girl who would love to be thinner, a girl who would love to wear nicer clothes, a girl that gets noticed when she walks on the street. But she’s invisible and the people surrounding her would never be able to help her be any other way…it’s so sad. With her they are three women…one that seems to be her mum and the mums friends…I can’t hear…

  • Words of Wisdom – 24/1

    Tonight will be my fourth night with Trevor. Even though I didn’t noticed any major changes today I noticed that I stopped thinking about food all the time. Before after every single meal I use to think at what I would like to eat next. So this is a good thing. Anyhow I have some quotes about fat that I would like to share with you. Hope they will make you laugh: Being fat isn’t so bad.. fat people are harder to kidnap!! Unknown quotes “I have a great diet. You’re allowed to eat anything you want, but you must eat it with naked fat people.” –¬†Ed Bluestone “Inside every…

  • Words of Wisdom – 21/1

    Today I received in the post the Thinking slimmer – Slimpod plus 14. So tonight I will go to sleep with Trevor and his Drop to Jeans Sizes Slimpod! I rather excited! I spent the last hour or so completing my Handbook and reading the Thinking Slimmer website. There are so many stories there of mummy bloggers that lost weight losing the Slimpod! I have to say that I am a bit…maybe more than a bit sceptic about this whole listening and slimming thing. However I do hope is going to work! At the moment I weigh 16st and usually wear size 16-18 clothes. I am hoping that using this…

  • What being fat means for me…

    Well I now know and I’m not longer denying, I know now that I’m a fat person. So I’m going to share with you what being fat means for me: – that I cannot wear the clothes I wish I could-skinny jeans,short tops you name it! Whatever I wear I feel uncomfortable wearing! – I hate my own reflection! I hate looking in the mirror because all I can see is this round thing I don’t know anymore! – I hate that I can’t wear heals anymore! Weigh too much and can’t walk properly! – the fact that I have to wear high waisted underwear-you see the bulge that is…